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Inspired by my lovely "ungirlfriend" who... had a lot of feelings. Ahem!

1. X Japan – Say Anything (Acoustic Live)
Just tell me all of your sweet lies...
Taken from an X show from 1995, when everything was peaches and roses and Yoshiki serenaded Toshi on the piano like a goddamn lounge singer. Things went to hell in 1997, but Yoshiki emerged, and ten years later in 2007, Toshi came to his senses, divorced his wife, and joined up with Yoshiki again. It’s never too late.

2. Shiro – Pearl
Aishiteiru mo, daikirai mo, sayonara mo...
This one should probably have context to it. I heard this song in 2002, a few years after the dissolution of X. It was Yoshiki’s first return to the stage since 1999, and he was grinning the entire fucking time. Despite losing both his best friends, he smiled like gold, like he knew things could only get better. The refrain, in English: “I love you, and I hate you, and I’m saying goodbye… just remember.”

3. Snow Patrol – Take Back the City
One perfect partner, one eternal kiss...
Just a great anthem for anyone breaking away. It makes me think of Kris when he’s in Los Angeles by himself, and free.

4. Texas – Like Lovers (Holding On)
Will you be here when the lights come on?
Did you ever see TITAN A.E.? It’s a cheesy animated Sci-Fi film. This song is played when it’s important about keeping faith alive, even after a whole planet has died.

5. InMe – Raindrops On Stones
It can't work; it won't work; the work's too much work; but it can't hurt...
This is the one song that Dave McPherson sings that I CANNOT separate from my fictional character Nicky. It’s just too perfect, in sound and subject, and it’s about acknowledging lateness that can still lead to “finding it all again”.

6. Pippin Cast – Morning Glow
We'll be present at the birth of old faith looking new
Pippin was the greatest theatre experience I’ve ever had. I was 14, and I didn’t really have any friends, but when I stood on that stage and belted out the harmonies in this song, it was like belonging to something bigger than myself. It was like finding meaning.

7. Hole – Never Go Hungry
It's time for me to make a stand... yeah, it's time for me to be a man
Courtney Love is not a great singer, but this is a great song, and it speaks volumes about someone going through hell and deciding not to take it anymore.

8. David Bowie – Where Are We Now?
As long as there's me... as long as there's you
You know this one.

9. Oblivion Dust – Never Ending
Don't you be afraid-- I'll never let you fade
I play this song on the freeway when everything sucks. Despite distance, some feelings never go away.

10. The Venus in Furs – 2HB
Finding, not keeping, is the lesson
The name of the song is actually the letters that correspond to the jukebox song at the end of VELVET GOLDMINE, which is a movie I wish I had written. It’s the essence of living forever thanks to immortalized rock and roll. “Your cigarette traces a ladder to the stars…” People leave things behind, including affairs, and often the art they made during those times brings them back. That’s what art is for.

11. Abandoned Pools – Maybe Then Someday
Maybe then we'll make it right
I used to listen to this when I thought the prospect of ever talking to Yoshiki or seeing him was completely hopeless.

12. Dishwalla – Above the Wreckage
Surrender for the last time.
Just can’t get enough of this one. The whole album is golden and inspirational, but this one in particular makes me think of someone who was condemned to some destructive situation and didn’t let it kill them. It also makes me feel creative. And hey, I wrote a book about X and then they got back together!

13. August Rush – August’s Rhapsody
Remember how we talked about ten years? This movie is incredibly cheesy, but the music speaks to me for reasons I think you’ll understand. We fucked up! But ten years later…

14. Declan Bennett – Love Wins
I want love to win so bad
As depressing as this song is, it’s still what I hear every time I want to see love win. It’s repeated in my head like a mantra. “Let love win. Let love win.” And hey, even if it doesn’t, at least there’s the story, right?

15. Kinya Koyani – Glaring Dream
Glaring one way
The closing theme of GRAVITATION. Need I say more? ;)


I miss fandom.

My crazy life sucks sometimes. How is everyone? Give me a short update on your latest obsessions. <3


Some Assembly Required: A Mix

As this one may have arisen as a partial tribute to my evolving obsession with comics and superheroes ['Monster', anyone? And 'Runnin' could be Tony Stark's fucking theme song], it mainly tackles badassery, noble sacrifices, and [gasp] patriotism [I blame 'More Blue' on Cap entirely]. It's also a tribute to the awesomeness of the surrounding sounds of this season. Two of my favourite artists released new records. Amoeba continues to amaze. And InMe crafted a rock and roll record worthy of any early 90s opus.

If anyone wants this for download, please poke me and I'll make it available.

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Questions for my friend's list...

Soo Avengers movie. YAY AWESOME, right? With all the fandom hoopla over the movie, it surprises me that a lot of females [in general] don't read the comics. Instead they tend to write fanfiction, which is awesome and fun, of course, but like, the amount of fanfic-worthy moments in the actual source material is ridonkulous, and yet still I only sell Cap comics and Iron Man comics and such to boys at the store, it seems.

If you're a fangirl/female reading this-- what is it about the Avengers movies that you find more appealing than comic books? Is it the actors?

Oh, and to clarify, I LOOOOVE the movies, and I'm in love with Chris Evans' Captain America, so I'm not being judgemental. ;)

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Someone explain this to me.

I'm completely obsessed with a kid's book series called Dragonbreath. There is no hidden motive for my obsession. There is no higher philosophical meaning in the books. I'm fairly certain a psychologist would pin some kind of syndrome on me for getting giddy over a bunch of adventure stories about a Dragon named Danny and his best friend Wendell (an iguana).

I do not have a thing for reptiles, as far as I know. I DO have a ridiculously obsessive personality, and with my profession veering towards comics as of late, I've been reading a lot of them. [I'm also obsessing over anything written by Scott Snyder, because he is retardedly talented and I want to have his babies.]

Just. Kid's books? Really?

This happened once before, with a series called Babymouse. Oh, and a picture book called Punk Farm. I guess it's happened a lot. But I have no ulterior motives other than laughing out loud and giggling over adorably drawn animals and their various quirks.

I feel a bit cuckoo for cocoa puffs. Does anyone else out there find themselves reading kiddie lit and loving it?

I guess this feels all the more disturbing because I own a lot of porn. Not that it has anything to do with dragons.


Of babies and fandom.

My sister had her baby. So far he's sufficiently normal-looking and not-scary, but if she bows to the pervasive use of one's infant as a default facebook icon, I won't know what to do.

I don't get the whole fandom bracket March Madness thing. Someone explain it? Fandom itself always confused me, I guess. [Although the most recent issue of Avengers: Children's Crusade caused me to squee and use the word 'shipping' when my two faves finally kissed. Go figure.]

It seems I've relegated most of my 'deep thoughts' to my main blog [concretesoul.wordpress.com] while this LJ gets used for stuff I can't really say anywhere else now that I'm associated with a major magazine and comic book company.


What the fuck.

[Livejournal is the only place I can really rant about this incoherently.]


He used to talk about how he'd never leave LA. Then he gets laid and all that changes. Does this mean that if we were randomly having sex he would have stayed?

Why does this always happen with my friends? Do I have to sleep with everyone to get them to stay?

Kris Allen is awesome.

He gets me blog hits!


In other news, I can always tell when I'm depressed or in financial straits because I lose about eight pounds. Damn.



I've spent literally the past 48 hours catching up on what happened in Marvel fandom while I was discovering & writing Kradam [i.e. the past 3 years]. It is now clear that when I ignore things for a certain period of time, actual gay happens [hello there RicStar, nice to see you make out, finally], the amnesiac Scarlet Witch tries to get married [WTF?], mystical hammers fall from the sky, and longtime X-enemies get a veritable divorce [what else would you call Schism?].

I think this means that I need to ignore Kradam for a while for anything exciting to happen.

Sick today. Going to clean shit and do laundry and lie in bed reading.